So seattle is coming up soon. Its gonna be fuckin awsome i think.

Dont steal. Even though shit will always happen to you no matter how moral and nice you are, its not worth making some one elses life worse.

I have NO fukcing idea why im so set on living without hate and sadness. Its liek its this natural thought in my mind that lets me say "Ima be the better person and move on" or "Well Im going to forgive you, i dont wanna be angry all the time" or shit like that. Its liek ima fucking old wise man or something.

Sometimes i wonder if having that natural state of mind even works. I dont really remember how else to think or anything, but its always a thought.

then i remember that it does alwyas work, and I have nothing to worry about. Rid yourself from hatred and you will rid all that is bad in your past, present and future, ggoddamit.... yup youll see. you sure will. in the end it wins so naturally its cruel.

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... for the past 3 months I havnt posted anything.

I was reading someone elses blog tonight and I thought about why i havnt posted anythign lately... I think its because ive been workn my ass off for like the entire time trying to fund my life; Girlfriend, Car, Rent, Food. It sucks. I want a part-time job again. I liked that gaurenteed paycheck every two weeks. It was so dam comforting, but i know that if i get into that ill realize how much money i could be making with design work... fuck. I hate money. It doesnt control my life, wich is what i was just going to put, but it keeps a burden on my life.

Got the new Linkin Park album. Im a faggot i dont give a shit i liek it. Only a LP fan would though. You people have any idae how fuckign long this layout took? Hours mo fuckas.

I need to start posting. It makes me feel better about shit, idk why, maybe its becaue im apart of the new digital generation and this is like my own version of "talking with my parents" or something. Its not my version of a journel though, i dont really talk about who i hate and what i hate and why this person is a faggot and how much this person screwed me over or any of that bullshit, i jsut speak my mind, and w.e coems out of it. yup. Oh and i only drink water now. Isnt that weird? For liek what over a month i havnt drank anything but water. I used to never drink water ever.

BTW i like me new place, even if the fucking internet connection is terrible and my roomate complains about everything i do, i like it. Yup i like it. And i cant wait for lindsay to run away from all the things holding her back and finally be herself, its all she needs. I wish she would understand that. I know that in her mind she just thinks i dont understand her, but shell see, yup she will in time. Just wait.