So seattle is coming up soon. Its gonna be fuckin awsome i think.

Dont steal. Even though shit will always happen to you no matter how moral and nice you are, its not worth making some one elses life worse.

I have NO fukcing idea why im so set on living without hate and sadness. Its liek its this natural thought in my mind that lets me say "Ima be the better person and move on" or "Well Im going to forgive you, i dont wanna be angry all the time" or shit like that. Its liek ima fucking old wise man or something.

Sometimes i wonder if having that natural state of mind even works. I dont really remember how else to think or anything, but its always a thought.

then i remember that it does alwyas work, and I have nothing to worry about. Rid yourself from hatred and you will rid all that is bad in your past, present and future, ggoddamit.... yup youll see. you sure will. in the end it wins so naturally its cruel.

/end

... for the past 3 months I havnt posted anything.

I was reading someone elses blog tonight and I thought about why i havnt posted anythign lately... I think its because ive been workn my ass off for like the entire time trying to fund my life; Girlfriend, Car, Rent, Food. It sucks. I want a part-time job again. I liked that gaurenteed paycheck every two weeks. It was so dam comforting, but i know that if i get into that ill realize how much money i could be making with design work... fuck. I hate money. It doesnt control my life, wich is what i was just going to put, but it keeps a burden on my life.

Got the new Linkin Park album. Im a faggot i dont give a shit i liek it. Only a LP fan would though. You people have any idae how fuckign long this layout took? Hours mo fuckas.

I need to start posting. It makes me feel better about shit, idk why, maybe its becaue im apart of the new digital generation and this is like my own version of "talking with my parents" or something. Its not my version of a journel though, i dont really talk about who i hate and what i hate and why this person is a faggot and how much this person screwed me over or any of that bullshit, i jsut speak my mind, and w.e coems out of it. yup. Oh and i only drink water now. Isnt that weird? For liek what over a month i havnt drank anything but water. I used to never drink water ever.

BTW i like me new place, even if the fucking internet connection is terrible and my roomate complains about everything i do, i like it. Yup i like it. And i cant wait for lindsay to run away from all the things holding her back and finally be herself, its all she needs. I wish she would understand that. I know that in her mind she just thinks i dont understand her, but shell see, yup she will in time. Just wait.

Well Im getting owned by life right now...


Started work at the Sushi joint, its a blast, it gets hectic but nothin i cant handle after working in coffee for so long. Its actually very similar. The traditions, lifestyle, work environment, its all like the same, kinda interesting. Im making sushi too so ima chef, its awsome, i love it..

But idk whats been wrong with me. ive had this feeling in the pit of my stomach for some time, its like a scared, sick, unconfortable feeling. Pretty much the all the bad feelings in one. I hate it, i need help but i dont know what to ask for. I guess its money, but i mean i have a livible amount, and i guess it could be i need to cut down on work and school but then i wouldnt continue my success.

Moving out is going to be very interesting. Ive never moved out for REAL. I mean liek im bringing all my shizz with me, liek EVERYTHING. Im tired of my fuckgin mom treating me either like im 5 or that im some kind of fuck up. Its ridiculous. I havnt met one adult whos thought i was any younger then 25. Maybe im giving myself too much credit. I could be... i probably am. -sigh-

NOW

So Mike, the kid in santee with the S13 got it totaled... my initial reaction was, "BAHHHHAHHAHAH LOLOLOLOL AHAHAHAHHA LOLOLOLOL ect -insert shit talk here-" .


But ive realized that, theres no reason for me to laugh at that. 1) because he could have been hurt. 2) because its a dam nissan and no matter who drives it, it doesnt deserve to get hurt. and finally 3) Its straight up not right to laugh at that and its bad karma.

Wow, i look like a complete jerk/ faggot. I dont really care whos a dam poser and whos not in reality, and i dont really care if your faster or slower then me on the mountain. I dont know why i make a big deal about non enthusiasts. I dislike them yes, and i feel like there a waist of air, but i really shouldnt make it known. It doesnt help ANYONE....

I will no longer make fun of hardparking crimes.... sorry Mike. Really.



For everyone whos wondering what brought up this, 2 weeks after he had his accident, myt car was involved in a hit and run. Totally uncalled for, or was it? for pics go here.

GODAMIT, ITS FINALLY DONE. been working on this mo'fuckn template for 2 weeks. Finalluy got it done! What you guys think? I love it fuck yea. I need to add some color to my banner yess i know. I also need to make the buttons all work but its 5am. yay! ok yea bed?