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By Shimmy On Tuesday, May 30, 2006 At 12:03 AM
Ok so, dam. So i guess im going to ramble on about some shit because i need some advice and i dont know who to ask becaus no one knows more about this that i know then me.Its a really tough situation. Say theres somone that you loved. Like i mean L-O-V-E, none of this liek fling stupid shit or like one night stand yelling "I love you" while you fuck eachother madly. I mean like your in-love. In love so much that your at the point in the relationship that like, you overlook your feelings when that person needs help. The point where a person stops being selfish about stupid things physical and mental, and start caring about this other person more then you would yourself. Thats the kind of love im talking about... Ok so back to it, so theres someone you love. Lets say that ummm.. for shits and giggles the scenerio is that there dying of some illness that cannot be treated for whatever reason, lets say because of money related issues. So theres your loved one, suffering.. suffering of this disease thats taking over there body and theres only a minimal amount you can do to help. You know you can liek make them laugh, make them forget about reality, give them a good time. Shit like that. But you know deep down that like, you wanna really help. You really wanna make an impact. You wanna either, find some weird ability to where you can turn the disease into a grown man instead of bacteria, and beat the shit out of it until its a bloody pulp. Or like you wanna just load yourself up with guns and raid a bank for all there money. But the point is, is that you feel like you need to do something, so much that it hurts. That it makes you cry, or it crushes you inside. It crushes you inside because you know you cant do those things.... You know, as yourself, that you cannot do anything to make that sort of an impact, to where; POOF! The Disease is GonE!
Its not possible at this time, or maybe ever. Thats how i feel right now, i feel as thought im sitting here holding this person that im inlove with on there bed as i watch the killer disease consume there body. If youve never been in this position, then know that you almost would rather die then be here. I just need to help in some way. Ive done everything that i can think of. And if they ask me for anything else, then ill do that too. But it jsut hurts so much when you want them to feel like they can count on you for anything, but your failing now. Well, im not saying that this person in the senerio is thinking that, but thats the way you feel yourself, is that your not doing enough. Do you rob the bank? The go to jail obviously and risk never seeing your person again; as good as death. Or do you invent some sort of device so that you can destroy the virus in an instant. I mean both options are ridiculous... Maybe you should just give up? Maybe like, youve done your part, and everything you can do and now its time for shit to fall how its going to fall... Maybe. Maybe you need to udnerstand that. Even if its hard you need to understand that theres nothing you can do at this point in time but keep doing what youve been doing and try your hardest to do your best... Maybe you should jsut do that and stay put where you are, let life do whatever it needs to do to get back to normal. Well i thought about it for 5 minutes after my last statment was said, and ive come to the conclusion that the last statment i made was bullshit. How can you give up like that? How can you just say "Oh well i tried.." .What kind of shit is that? I know im not going to do that. I cant, it doesnt fell right, right now. I wont give up on that person. If you did, then thats not love. Ill fight. Ill do whatever it takes to overcome this. Now that i think about this, my position is simple, fix it, because it needs to be done and you cannot watch this person who you love suffer. I know i cant. I fucking wont either. Do whatever it takes, and fuck the odds....
hmmm......shit, man. Love is crazy, but its consumed me and dont regret anything. Its an amazing thing and i love every minute of my life that i have someone to love and who loves me back, thats how i can have this state of mind. i love love and ill do what it takes.
Its not possible at this time, or maybe ever. Thats how i feel right now, i feel as thought im sitting here holding this person that im inlove with on there bed as i watch the killer disease consume there body. If youve never been in this position, then know that you almost would rather die then be here. I just need to help in some way. Ive done everything that i can think of. And if they ask me for anything else, then ill do that too. But it jsut hurts so much when you want them to feel like they can count on you for anything, but your failing now. Well, im not saying that this person in the senerio is thinking that, but thats the way you feel yourself, is that your not doing enough. Do you rob the bank? The go to jail obviously and risk never seeing your person again; as good as death. Or do you invent some sort of device so that you can destroy the virus in an instant. I mean both options are ridiculous... Maybe you should just give up? Maybe like, youve done your part, and everything you can do and now its time for shit to fall how its going to fall... Maybe. Maybe you need to udnerstand that. Even if its hard you need to understand that theres nothing you can do at this point in time but keep doing what youve been doing and try your hardest to do your best... Maybe you should jsut do that and stay put where you are, let life do whatever it needs to do to get back to normal. Well i thought about it for 5 minutes after my last statment was said, and ive come to the conclusion that the last statment i made was bullshit. How can you give up like that? How can you just say "Oh well i tried.." .What kind of shit is that? I know im not going to do that. I cant, it doesnt fell right, right now. I wont give up on that person. If you did, then thats not love. Ill fight. Ill do whatever it takes to overcome this. Now that i think about this, my position is simple, fix it, because it needs to be done and you cannot watch this person who you love suffer. I know i cant. I fucking wont either. Do whatever it takes, and fuck the odds....
hmmm......shit, man. Love is crazy, but its consumed me and dont regret anything. Its an amazing thing and i love every minute of my life that i have someone to love and who loves me back, thats how i can have this state of mind. i love love and ill do what it takes.
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