Wir werden Dinge genießen, die arbeiten, Und lernt von jenen, die nicht machen. Dies wird eine große Lektion sein.


Take my dam quote to heart. Seems like we all need to start living by it. For those of you who dont speak Deutsch, the quote above is translated too; "We will enjoy things that fallow through, and learn from those that do not." Its critical to my current situation, however after spending long hours pondering this new predicament, its not as heavy of a burden as it may seem. Shit this is applied to everything in life...

Perhaps I should back up a few days for a little bit of background. Last sunday I beleive, could have been Saturday me and Lindsay and some friends of ours tripped on E. lol Basicly the whole thing. Lindsay and i didnt feel ANYTHING so i got pissed and decided to get us some Oxy. Everyone else was fucked up and we were too once we got our stuff. We listened to musik went for weird drives hung out and played with Samuri Swords. It was a blast. Mike and i also hacked the fuck out of some gurls GaySpace, we didnt even know the girl, but it was just her image that pissed us off. It had to be done: .. Lindsay took me to this AWSOME pankake place and now we're both hooked. I had coconut waffles and she had some strawberry ones, and both were amazing.... The weekafter was great too other then the fact that my mom kinda walked in on Lindsay and I making love; turn off. We tripped again on E that tuesday i beleive and went to the park. Haha i broke my cigg some how, im not sure. It was lame but the night was intresting. I really love our parks here in East County, there not all industrialized, yet atleaste. The next day I had class and afterwards my babe called me up and we went out shoppin over in Hilcrest. Found a pretty sweet new store too, and we were invited to there opening party. Too bad i cant go tonight. *sigh. I got mad free coke on thursday. Ya fuck 420 and your weed. GROW UP. Lindsay and I just laugh at their lifestyle. C'mon guys, KMK? SeEDLeSS? What is this a fashion show? W.e im over it. It was good but i almost did too much. I got messed up. Mike, Lindsay, and I all had a great 420 lol.....

Then some shit happened. I'd rather not get into too much detail, but heres the breakdown; Ive had a great few months, possibly the greatest.... wait not possibly, DEFINITLY the greatest time of my entire life. People met, a butt load of hang outs and get-togethers, gotten myself into some pretty nice scenerios, had many many "times, ill never forget"... I regret nothing ever, but I've made some poor decisions, and theres consiquences. Im not a fuck up or a looser, or a failure, or anthing like that. No one is if they make mistakes, unless they dont learn. Shit maybe i shouldnt have told this person that, or done this particular thing, or somethin; but what am I to do now? Well be smarter. We all need to. Hey, we're not born being perfect right? Except Lindsay of course <3. Oh well i guess all there is to get out of this post is the quote. Its truely a life lesson. Everythign gets better, everything. No one lives in shit there whole life. Some people say that everything turns to chaos. Ok thats fine, because it does, but after chaos theres beauty, and whats more important to you huh?

OK so I got ALl That Remains - And Death in My Arms playing and im thinking about everything thats happen to me in the last week; Randomly lost my job, Left My Dads house, Almost Died, and fell inlove with the Z32 for the 900th time. I think everything really began on like last Friday when I went over to Lindsays house in order to go to a play. My dad went insane over some stupid shit and I really have had enough of it so i told him to fuck off and im never going to see him again. This is actually going to suck because of all the other people living at that house, im going to miss them.. Oh well after i got to my loves place we decided to say fuck the play because of complications with other people, and I left to pick up my mate Mike and we all went for food. Since Asian is all we are, a local Sushi resturaunt was choosen. The food was wonderful and ended up looking liek this: It was great, Cury, Sushi, Japanese Teriyaki and this thing that the jap people gave to us lol ^ Well all was well at dinner time until... OH SHIT NOT ENOUGH MONEY TO PAY FOR FOOD!LOL!XD! Only one thing to do guys..... RUNN! ok well we gave them 39 bux and the ending bill was lik 46.57 or something. Lol we really didnt mean to be all retarted and leave like that but w.e we didnt have any funds and the rolls were OVERPRICED!@#@@! So ya we're fucking GONE. Take off in my car and end up driving around all of East County. I drive up to Swallow and we looked over the city at night wich is always nice... Everythings all lit up, super pretty. TOwards the end of the night the Elekctronika album we had on was almost over so I took everyone back home. Everyone was ontime and the day was awsome. Seems like everything went smoothly and we jsut had a good time. Meanwhile i had to go back and seem my dad. I waited at Lindsays and we made a little love then my ride came. Nothing was said between my dad and i the whole way home.... FUck him.



The next day was Saturday and Lindsay and I had NOTHING to do so we ended up going out to see Lucky Number Sleven lol although that mever happened, i think we got caught up making love at my place or something like that. Before everything went down we got some mexican food and there was that fuckgin cunt at Casadorez, you know, the owners daughter, and no not the cute one, the fucgin fat bitch who jsut hates life. She wore a "Everyone loves and Irish girl" or some fuckign shit liek that and we wanted to cross it out and write BEANER in place of Irish. Fuckign cholo bitch pissed me off. Oh well :
So the day contintued and sweet love was made and everything was great again. My dads still a cunt and i only had one last day with him "Legaly". Sunday i dont think anything happened. Lol uhhh and then fucking Monday roles around...... Yup monday. WELL Mike and i were SUPER fucking bored at my place and i guess we did absoulutly nothing for about 6 hours. I realized that it was now 330am on tuesday morning and i had gotten us a new drug hook-up. Very nice. Besides that it was fuckgfin BORRING so there was only one thing to do.... bust out the SkittlEz. Ya not such a good idea. We each popped what? 10 or 12? Ya FUCKed me up BAD. I remember about 45 min after the dosage i told mike "Dude... i think ima throw-up...." Then all of the sudden i was on the floor and my head hurt like a fuckgin bitch and i was all tingly. Mike says "Haha.... Dude... dont do that..." I was like WTF? DO what? I Guess i blacked out for a matter of seconds and i had callapsed onto the ground and had a little siezure. Hahaha we're so smart! The whole rest of the night was full of cold sweats and bad dreams. The next day i picked up lindsays from school and i was still feeling liek shit. We went over to her place i told her what happened and crashed at her place. I woke up again at liek 5pm sweating and i ran into her bathroom and threw up like crazy... went back to bed until 732pm. Her mom gave my some meds and i was on my way home. I got back to my place and fell asleep until about 1144am today. Ya i feel much better and i swear to never to skittles again. By far the worst experience ever. 2 Black outs and flu like symptoms, i mgiht as well have died for 2 days because i was gone. that shit fucked me up.



So now its 4:30pm on a wednesday and my babes coming over with NÜnz and bringin food. I found a new Z32 aero kit thats INSANE too. Check out this site: http://www.curve-ad.com/z32/ and clikc on the link that says フォトギャラリー３ . Its amazing and once again the Twin Turbo Z32 is the fuckgin shit. Idk what ima get still. Either the S14 Kouki 240sx or the 2+2 Twin Turbo 300zx, there both hella sexy and fast. ACH, until next post.

Ok so today was insane... Well heres how it all began: So i wake up at like idk, 6:16 and call lindsay up to say good morning and wish her a happy day of school. We say blah blah and i begin to get ready for work. Well, after im dressed and showerd or w.e i head down to the business, although as i drive up i realize that all the lights are off and theres 2 big signs that read :"WE ARE CLOSED." Im thinking like "Wtf... maybe there renovating?" So i walk up to the door and i look in and all of the computers are taken out, the posters are ripped off and like every single peice of equipment has been taken out. "Uhhhh......", i think. Well i go nextdoor to Sav-On because i know some people working there and im like "Yo! Employees of Sav-On, wtf happened to CyberBrew?" And this lady is like "Oh yea, i was there yesterday morning and all the lights were off and i was like "Uhhh i guess there openning late? BUT as soon as i left, i saw UHaul driving up and they begin to un load everything out of the store.... They shut down!" The she says, they didnt tell you? And im liek uhhh.... no lol and i work there! So i end up going home and getting my key to the lock and i get there because i need the Contact List in order to call my boss... Well, lucky me, they decided to take the Contact List as well as all the other files that had anything to do with the company.. BankRupcey? Funny because i only worked there for like what? Week and a Half? So yea, big surprise to me.... Well im feeling liek shit and before i know it its 2pm so i head off to pick lindsay up at school. Fuckign hate her school parking lot because i guess when school ends, they decide to close off the entrances???? Yea so you cant pick anyone up until like 15 minutes after school.... SO i finally find my way in and get her. "yayayaya im here babe!" ok so yea i get her and we're all lovy dovy or w.e and i begin to tell her about my work situation and shes shocked. Fuck it i say. Well i get over to Guitar Center to take some cables back and w.e then to Tweeter and then to take her back home. Yes i went from Tierrisanta onto the 15 onto Mission Gorge on 0 gas. I guess my gas moniters broken or something because it blinked like 1000 times and flashed but i still could floor it whenever i want and i doubt it could have went 100+ mph on 0 gallons... W.e. more shit to deal with i guess? Well i get home and Mike calls me and we end up planning to hang out. I call lindsay and we all go from my house yo mikes then to lindsays then back to my moms to chill. CoF and Dimmu DVDs are playing in my living room as i make sweet love to lindsay in my rroom for about an hour. Well i lindsay ends up going home and mike and i still have no ride anywhere. We search around my house for gas money until like 230am and then finally find my moms stash of pennies/quaters/dimes/bulllshit money and then try to find ciggs. I also passed the new Best Buy thats being built next to the Town Center over by my old work and we decided to drive through it. Yes now i can say that i drove my car through best buy. It looks nice i guess idk though i mean with all this new shit; BestBuy, Lowes, Kohl's,Starbuckx1000 i think santee is becoming less and less hick/racist... i dont know how i feel about that. Possibly negative because i dont want it to turn into another Carmel Valley rich cunt shit. I like East County the way it is even if i dont fit in. W.e though. Now its 4am and im jobless tired and back to having no money. Idk what im going to do.... find out tomarrow? Maybe ill work at bed bath and beyond or some shit.. i know some one there. Oh well, post later.

dude im in-love.... with lindsay :D

Ok so here i am again at work posting on my BBS. Well, i arrived at the Cafe' at 6:32am and thats fucking early. Opening shift was a bitch one; because no one told me what to do, Lucky i had prior experience! And two; because last night i went to sleep at like the crack o' dawn(lmafo). Well i decided to bring my Mp3 Player to play some tunes (4Strings, AliceDeejay). We had an INSANE rush again and working alone makes it extra tough, but oh well thats the job i guess. I havnt made any art in forever too... maybe ill draw somthing?DAM i jsut saw a crazy lifted truck in East County! WHAT!@? In Clan-Tee???? Yes im getting tired of this place. Actually i dont even know if im getting tired of it, jsut the people in it. Oh well, no worries really ill be able to do what i want in 7 months so w.e. "Alice Deejay - Celebrate Our Love" Hmmm, customer, brb...................... ok back. Well Mikes coming in today because he got kicked out of his dads house.